Overwhelemed. If I could think of one word to describe how I feel, thats it. Overwhelmed with feelings of gratitude, exhaustion, sadness and hope, some fear, excitement, unbelief, and joy. Just to name a few. The magnitude of everything going on inside of my heart and mind is too much to process in just one week. I can't believe I've only been here at SBS in Taiwan for ONE WEEK.
I have this tendancy to shut down and my heart can be so hard at times. I have been distraught lately at the lack of passion I felt. I felt a lack of gratitude for what Jesus did on the cross for me. I would watch videos of child trafficking and hear songs about it and not shed a tear. Warning: why do I feel nothing about what has plagued my heart and thoughts my entire life? Shut down to my savior who has done so much for me and emotionally bankrupt about the calling he has on my life. I have been warned that when I'm overwhelmed that shutting down is what I do.
It has been my prayer coming to Taiwan that the Lord would soften my heart. That I wouldn't recieve a ton of head knoweledge but that my heart would be transformed. Its day three and God has completely rocked my world!
No sad video or song about the enslaved people around the world can move me like God's word did today. It says in Galatians 1:3-5 that it is God's will that people are delivered from the present evil age and that he gave himself for this cause! The truth of this pierced my heart this morning in class. I sat there with tears streaming down my face and barely holding it together. I felt broken hearted for those in spiritual and physical bondage all over the world. I also felt true hope and joy unspeakable that God's heart for them is deliverance. I was more grateful today for what Christ did on the cross than I can remember being in a long time. I was also grateful and overwhelmed that God was answering my prayers. God spoke straight to my heart!
It incredible to me that when the world breaks my heart all I can do to survive is shut down. Yet with Christ, even though my heart gets broken, he brings a fresh wave of hope.
This was just the beginning of many heart revelations from only the first 17 verses in Galatians. Its amazing how understanding the context of just one word written in the Bible can unlock countless treasures. I think I was in tears the whole day; good tears, healing tears, changing tears.
In regards to reading the Bible, up to this point, I feel like I have just been taking sips from a water fountain. Now I feel like I'm standing underneath a waterfall!
Thank you God for speaking to my heart today! Thank you for wanting to deliver those in bondage! Thank you for bringing life!
I have this tendancy to shut down and my heart can be so hard at times. I have been distraught lately at the lack of passion I felt. I felt a lack of gratitude for what Jesus did on the cross for me. I would watch videos of child trafficking and hear songs about it and not shed a tear. Warning: why do I feel nothing about what has plagued my heart and thoughts my entire life? Shut down to my savior who has done so much for me and emotionally bankrupt about the calling he has on my life. I have been warned that when I'm overwhelmed that shutting down is what I do.
It has been my prayer coming to Taiwan that the Lord would soften my heart. That I wouldn't recieve a ton of head knoweledge but that my heart would be transformed. Its day three and God has completely rocked my world!
No sad video or song about the enslaved people around the world can move me like God's word did today. It says in Galatians 1:3-5 that it is God's will that people are delivered from the present evil age and that he gave himself for this cause! The truth of this pierced my heart this morning in class. I sat there with tears streaming down my face and barely holding it together. I felt broken hearted for those in spiritual and physical bondage all over the world. I also felt true hope and joy unspeakable that God's heart for them is deliverance. I was more grateful today for what Christ did on the cross than I can remember being in a long time. I was also grateful and overwhelmed that God was answering my prayers. God spoke straight to my heart!
It incredible to me that when the world breaks my heart all I can do to survive is shut down. Yet with Christ, even though my heart gets broken, he brings a fresh wave of hope.
This was just the beginning of many heart revelations from only the first 17 verses in Galatians. Its amazing how understanding the context of just one word written in the Bible can unlock countless treasures. I think I was in tears the whole day; good tears, healing tears, changing tears.
In regards to reading the Bible, up to this point, I feel like I have just been taking sips from a water fountain. Now I feel like I'm standing underneath a waterfall!
Thank you God for speaking to my heart today! Thank you for wanting to deliver those in bondage! Thank you for bringing life!
Amen
ReplyDeleteGirl you ROCK! :) Praying for you! :)
ReplyDeleteHi Miranda,
ReplyDeleteI met you in Kona and have since heard so many great things about you from Mica. I just wanted to let you know that I am praying for you! Thank you for sharing what God is doing in your life!
May God continue to richly bless you and protect you as you serve Him.
Shelly Sansaver (Mica's Mom)
Thanks Shelly! I just saw this for the first time. I know its been awhile. You're encouragement is a huge blessing!
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